Crushes and other frustrations

So, now that I've managed to thoroughly creep out my best friend with my last post....I figure it's time to go through some of the other girls that I liked, but never got anywhere with prior to her.


"KR" - (1990-1992) I met her in junior high in Estevan. We met because my locker was right beside (or 2 down...I forget) hers due to being in the same grade and both our last names starting with "R". I don't know if I really had a "crush" on her but she was one of the first females of my adolescent life that I actually talked to. We were both honour roll students so most of the conversations consisted of comparing marks and making fun of the other when we outscored them. I don't think she ever dated anyone when I knew her....maybe I should have taken the chance. I can't imagine how different my life could have been if I'd gotten the first girlfriend thing out of the way then, instead of after my first year of college.

"MN" - (1992-1994ish?)I met her out at my parent's cottage, her grandparents owned the cottage next door to ours. I can't remember exactly how she overlapped with "S" but I thought she was cute. I definitely had a crush on her and we hung out pretty much whenever we could. We'd walk around just talking about stuff for hours. I'm not sure that I made any sense since most of my brain-power was dedicated to berating myself for being so shy and trying to convince myself to hold her hand or something........anything. We hung out during the summers for a couple years and I never got my courage up. My sister ended up marrying one of her cousins (who also used the cottage) so at least that proximity didn't go completely to waste.

EN - (1994-1995) I had a huge crush on this girl when I was in high school in Red Deer. I don't really know how or when I met her....must have chatted in class or something. She was pretty cute, but I really don't remember anything else about her. I tried a couple times to call her up and ask her out or something, but I never got up the courage. I think I even called and chatted a couple times but chickened out on the phone. I'm sure that was amusing to her. Finally did ask her out in the last few months of grade 12, however she was seeing someone else at that time. She's where I started to develop my stalking techniques. I'd discovered that she lived kinda on the way to one of my friend's houses, and I'd alter my route so I could drive down her street. I don't really know why I bothered since I know I would have been way too shy to actually stop and talk to her if I saw her. Maybe I'd get lucky and run her over or something.

The Twins (1994-1995)- These were a pair of identical twin girls in the grade below me in high school. They were tall, at least 6 ft, and they were cute. And they lived halfway between my place and one of the hockey rinks I played at. I also drove past their place whenever possible. I think I think I even saw one of them in the window one time. Or maybe it was a big house cat. Heh heh, so pointless. I wasn't quite as smitten as my pal "DJ" though. He found out when and where they had a dance recital one weekend and dragged me along to see them perform. This was a bit too far, even for me. They were cute but I never really thought I had a chance, so I never took this one too seriously. If nothing else, I couldn't really tell them apart, so how could I choose which one to ask out. Heh heh.

"CS" (1995-1996) - She was a girl I just kinda knew from high school that ended up in a bunch of my classes at college. She was tall and thin, maybe not the cutest face ever, but cute enough, really smart, and pretty fun to talk to. I definitely had a crush on her, but I just kinda played it cool. Probably too cool. I do remember one time I asked her to hang out outside of school, and she even said yes. She and a friend (who I also vaguely knew from high school, was cute and flirted with me the entire time....but of course I didn't notice) went indoor golfing with me and two friends. I don't remember how this happened exactly...maybe her friend was back from the UofA for reading week and was looking for something to do. I'm not sure how I ended up asking her to hang out though. Not a clue actually. I do remember one of my buddies trying to replicate the Happy Gilmore golf swing and breaking my dad's club, so it must have been post Feb 1996. (thanks IMDB). That correlates with the spring break theory.

I also remember "CS" coming to my house to study or something once, and getting caught in the crossfire of a marshmallow fight between me and my sisters. I really don't remember how this happened. I do remember I had to drive her home. Not sure how she got to my place. I probably should have asked her out for real at some point, or her friend that was flirting with me at golf, but I was way too shy. Oh well. At least I didn't drive by her house for no reason.



This was the end of my futile crushes era thank goodness. After the summer of 1996 and my experiences with "C" and "E", I got a little more confident. Also, when I went to school at the U of S in the fall of 1996, I learned the the easiest way to more confidence is to drink excessively. This discovery carried me through the rest of my college career, despite probably contributing to high cholesterol, 50lbs of weight gain, and a mild ulcer.